11.2.09

love

I have had a startling revelation: I don't feel loved. Now, don't get me wrong: I know there are numerous people out there who love me: family, friends, that one random kid I just gave ice cream to, etc. But I don't feel it. That's really my problem: touch. If you've meet me, you most likely know I'm a touchy-feely person. If I know you, I'm not afraid to get inside your bubble. I love getting and receiving hugs. I need human touch. I'm just not getting it. There are only so many people I can ask for hugs, and only so many friends who let you get that close to them. Unfortunatly, most of you are not that touchy-feely, and feel weird when I get too close. That's not wrong, that's you. But for me, I need more. And I'm not getting it. And frankly, I'm perplexed. I don't know what to do to change this. Maybe I just live with it? Maybe I pray for a boyfriend (although that hasn't worked yet...). Who knows?

3 comments:

  1. At least you both crave touch and are a touchy-feely person. I both want to be touched and have a huge personal bubble. Difficult, this is.

    Just hang in there, love. Something will happen. You know, someday. ; D

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  2. I completely understand. I don't really have anyone to hug either, and the one person I could always ask for a hug is actually in reach. Unfortunately he's at the MTC on a mission.

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  3. Have you read the 5 love langauges book? I think you'd like it.

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