what if...

life sucks sometimes. well, make that most of the time. i guess you'd say life's all in your attitude. but what if you didn't care anymore? what if it hurt so much, you didn't care about being happy, or even pretending to be happy?

what if friends try to help, but don't realize how they can help? what if they try something, and it doesn't work, because you've tried it yourself? what if it makes things worse?

"what if it does?" a voice whispers. "what if this is what you need to get you going again?" you try to ignore the voice, but it won't go away. it nags at you.

you almost want to give in, if only for some hope. but you know that if it turned out badly, you'd only hurt more. you don't want to allow yourself hope. the pain is numb now, almost comforting.

what if there was one thing you knew would help, but it was as out of reach as the moon? or the stars?

what if...