busy

I keep meaning to blog, but my homework for my 3 classes is unbearable. No, seriously. Try CS142. It's great fun. I promise a great and amazing post. Before the end of the semester.

1. I'd really like buy stuff right now. 2. Nothing is the word you'd most often hear me say if I stubbed my toe. 3. Possession is having stuff you use. And like to use. (when I first read this, I read Precussion. slight difference) 4. What is Captain Jack Sparrow? 5. Marshmallows and fire go together like me and my bed. Which is to say, they should be together right now, but unfortunatly they're not. 6. It goes on and on and on and on. 7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to getting off work at 7 to sleep/do homework, tomorrow my plans include working all day then doing something I've never done before and Sunday, I want to actually do my calling!

meme

So, this has been going around a bit, and technically I was tagged...

(a) republish these rules

• Link to your original tagger(s) and list these rules in your post.
• Share seven facts about yourself in the post.
• Tag seven people at the end of your post by leaving their names and the links to their blogs.
• Let them know they’ve been tagged.

(b) share seven (preferably less well-known) facts about myself:

(1) I know how to play the violin, and I actually took an Orchestra class last semester. Only one person came though. (2) I own an old iMac. It has some problems though, so I'm not quite sure what to do with it. I'd like to put Linux on it sometime though. (3) I had a cat once. I actually grew up with her, she arrived at my house a few months before I did, and lasted 17 years. The day she died was a very sad day. (4) I love my room. It's tiny, but perfect for me. Yes, it has a higher chance of getting cluttered, but that's just part of the fun. (5) My eyes water sometimes for no reason. Like right now. Maybe, somewhere deep inside of me is crying? This has been going on all day. NOT COOL. (6) I collect bells. I have some from Northern Ireland, Germany, and now Ukraine. If you're going anywhere cool, you can bring me back one if you want. (7) I actually asked for Valentines day off work this year. Here's hoping I get a date! (c) I tag: Nanti, Gio, Liz, Chilly, Unit, Orb, and katydid. I think you all read my blog, but I'll post a comment somewhere on your blogs to let you know anyway. Here's to a great week!

huh

So, apparently I'm not actually taking a break from blogging. huh. I am feeling better, though. Whether or not I'm just in denial is yet to be seen. Yes, for three days I felt like crap. I wanted to break my cell phone, throw my computer across the room, and other damaging behavior. But, then I woke up and decided that I hated feeling like crap, so I wasn't going to anymore. And I still not. I don't really know if this is good for me. Did I go through all the phases of grief? Did I fully get it out of my system? Am I supposed to feel like crap for longer than three or four days? Am I supposed to continue to lose sleep? To me, that's what's not healthy. Especially since I now have a second job, where I work Monday through Friday 4 am to 8 am. Not sleeping is NOT an option. But, I've been thinking about it a lot. And I feel peace. I know I'm doing okay. I just need to have patience. I still have no idea what's going on in my life. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. But I'm starting to be okay with it. It's what faith's about anyway, right? Not knowing the future, but knowing that it'll turn out how it's supposed to, in the end. And that's all that matters.

that one day again

1. Oh, I am so done with valentines day, and it's not even February yet! 2. I don't like many changes, big and little. 3. During class, I'll try not to sleep. This will probably not work, but will make me feel better that at least I'm trying, right? 4. It's almost February; are you kidding me??? 5. Right now I'd like to be in bed. Maybe. 6. My computer, iPod, and things on my wishlist is my favorite gadget. (I couldn't choose just one!) 7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to working with friends, tomorrow my plans include sleeping in and watching our stake road show and Sunday, I want to not think.

Lellow Nemanem thanks you for reading her blog.

apples and obnoxious baked beans

So, yesterday was fun. Why? Because of no school. Now, that does sound shallow of me, doesn't it? While I do admire all that Martin Luther King Jr did (just watch the news for the newest outcome from this), I must honestly say it does little to affect my own life. Other then giving me a day off of school. So, I hung out with my friend, Liz. Yay!

Hee hee. I had lots of fun with my camera. (and she had lots of fun with it, too) Here are more random pictures:

My hat!

Liz again

me looking drunk (I wasn't, I swear! It was only lemonade!)

In response to the previous picture, Liz said "Open your eyes!" So, I did.

So, we ended up playing apples to apples. It was awesome. At one point in the game, this is what I had before me (the green card is at the top):

Which one is most Obnoxious? Sharks, Baked Beans, Slivers, or Darth Vader? Baked beans, of course!

Hee hee hee. I did end up choosing Baked Beans. I mean, what if it got in your hair? That would be mighty Obnoxious!

In the end, this was me:

Scary, Unscrupulous, Harmful, Shallow, Fake, Playful, Boring, Clueless, Saintly, Primitive, Swift

And this was Liz:

Refreshing, Easy, Furious, Meek, Spicy, Graceful, Responsible, Cute, Obnoxious (yes, she won with the beans), Cuddly, Appetizing, Fresh, Clean

Yay for friends and games to keep my mind off of other stuff. Which is good, because thinking about such things still makes me want to throw my laptop against the wall. Which, last I checked, was not a good idea. Yep, still not a good idea. Drat.

would you cry a little, for me?

Wow, just when I think my life is crazy enough, I get thrown a curve ball. Or something. And it's all I can do to stay afloat. I try to stay very positive on this blog, but right now I see very little in my life to be positive about. Which means I might not be posting for a while, because I have to work out some things, most of which are not pleasant. I do have to mention that one of those things is, in fact, a broken heart. I haven't been dating someone, but I made the mistake to fall for my best friend, and he has no such feelings for me. And I just found out that he actually has a girlfriend now. So, to prevent this blog from turning 'woe is me!' theamed, I probably will not post, unless something really big happens, or something small that makes me smile. Don't have too much fun without me.

advice

If I ask people for advice, then don't take it, what does that make me?

friday again.

1. Enough with the Cold. Seriously. 2. Thoughts causes me to be conflicted. 3. I've been craving nothing. In fact, I've sort of lost my apatite. Whoops. 4. Twitter makes me laugh. 5. I wish I could go to Wales next week. 6. Something has been on my mind lately. 7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to work, tomorrow my plans include watching my niece for my sister and brother-in-law and Sunday, I want to sleep in. A lot.

Over and Over by Three Days Grace

I feel it everyday it's all the same It brings me down but I'm the one to blame I've tried everything to get away So here I go again Chasing you down again Why do I do this? Over and over, over and over I fall for you Over and over, over and over I try not to It feels like everyday stays the same It's dragging me down and I can't pull away So here I go again Chasing you down again Why do I do this? Over and over, over and over I fall for you Over and over, over and over I try not to Over and over, over and over You make me fall for you Over and over, over and over You don't even try So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead I know what's best for me But I want you instead I'll keep on wasting all my time Over and over, over and over I fall for you Over and over, over and over I try not to Over and over, over and over You make me fall for you Over and over, over and over You don't even try to

Antithesis

I met my antithesis today. It was quite odd. I decided to hang out with a friend this evening, since I still don't have a second job, and my homework time is minimal so far. Well, one of her friends dropped by her apartment while I was there, and we got to talking. She is a mac hater. I love my mac. She is a cat hater. I love cats. I know these two facts alone do not make her the anti of me, but I suspect there was more she was hiding. There's also the fact that we watched a movie, one which I find hilarious. She didn't laugh once. I really don't get it.

that's what I get

...for putting all my eggs into one basket. So, I like reading blogs. A lot. In Google Reader, I'm subscribed to over 140 or 150. But see, there-in lies my problem. For this afternoon, I went in to Google Reader, and about 30 seconds later, I got logged out. Then it happened again. And again. So, I can not read any of the blogs right now. Dang. So, back to this? Edit: It's now working! And I found out, I am subscribed to 149 blogs. All is well.

Readability

Wow, High School! I probably should say something funny, or thought provoking. But I'm too busy trying to figure out what to have for lunch. Hmmm, sandwiches or soup?

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books. and news?

I bought my books today. Finally. At least I didn't have to wait in line. In other news: - I now have a transferable permit, so I can park with either of my parents cars on campus (as long as I have the hanging part) - I'm still looking for a job. Well, another job. - I painted my nails today. I might post a picture. Eventually. - I love Elder Hollands devotional talk today. Find it. Read it/listen to it. Follow it. - Taking baths is becoming a favorite pastime of mine. Along with this is bathing while on the computer (yes, I am incredably irresponsible with my electronics around water. You'd think I'd have learned after dropping my ipod in the toilet once...) - I'm trying to get into a habit of going to bed early. So far, it's not working. Any ideas? - This list is weirder than I thought it would be. Maybe I should start making stuff up? - I'm wondering what to do with my halloween costume. Any ideas? - I've posted once a day so far this year. (on average) - This list is done.

Oh they say you can see your future Inside a glass of water

I'm in a good mood. I'm not sure why, but I like it. Today has been interesting, a lot of ups and downs. I won't bore you with the details, but it was not what I was expecting. Still, I was upbeat, and positive, and thought about somethings that I'm working out. Life doesn't wait for you to catch up to it, you have to run and grab it yourself. And I'm trying. I'm not sprinting, I can't sprint. But, I can walk. I can keep going. It might take me a while to catch up, but I will. I can. Also: here's a few pictures I took today while walking around campus. Enjoy!

smile

I love my scarf. That is all.

An afternoon out

So, I didn't work today. Yay! Not working is usually fun, at least until pay day comes along. Then you wonder why your paycheck is tiny. But, that's besides the point. Seanna, my friend and coworker, also had the day off. So, the only reasonable thing to do was spend the afternoon together. What an afternoon! First, she picked me up, and took me back to her apartment. She lives with her mom and sister, and two cats. The cats are pretty awesome. I scared one of them to death I think, getting this photo:

hee hee hee!

So, he ran away, and I got this picture:

run and hide

Then, we spent an hour upstairs. She introduced me to ask a ninja: And I introduced her to XKCD, Dino Comics, and Questionable Content. Awesomeness. Then we went to Macey's, because Seanna volunteered to paint the face of the clown (yes, some days there is a clown walking around Macey's. we also have a moose). Apparently she worked at Disneyland sometime ago, and learned how. She's really good at it, too. Here are some pictures:

Candid!

beginning to paint the face of the clown

When she was done painting her face, she did me. Here's my beautiful face:

It was cool, because she put sparkles on it and everything. When we were done there, we decided to go to the mall, because I needed a new pair of sunglasses, and we wanted to have fun. I knew that I wouldn't really buy the sunglasses at the mall, but we wanted to look around anyway. On the way, we were behind this: In case you can't really see it, here's a close up:

can you tell what they're doing?

We first walked around Radio Shack. Yes, I know they have no sunglasses. So what? We had fun looking at the phones and cameras. Then we wandered over to Claire's, where we looked at hats. I was going to take a picture of Seanna in this awesome green hat, but a clerk came over and said I wasn't allowed to take pictures of the merchandise. Meh. I found a brown hat I really liked, but I hadn't really been planing on buying it. Still, I thought about it. Then we went to Icing, which is like Claire's (actually owned by the same company), but aimed at a different age group. I found no sunglasses I liked, and no hats I liked. Sadness. So, we went back to Claire's, where I looked at the hat a bit more, tried it on, thought about it, and ended up buying it. Yay! Then we were practical, and went to Wal-Mart. Seanna needed a long sleeved shirt, and I still needed my sunglasses. I ended up also finding a scarf, so the end result looked something like this:

go me!

Then, I went home, so I could go to Stake Conference (the Saturday night session). What an afternoon!

Good Gravy!

So, Wednesday was quite the day! And you get to hear about it, aren't you so excited? Well, you should be. Maybe not. Oh well, you can read about it anyway. :^D It started out well enough, I got a ride to school, met a friend on campus to borrow her book to read for class (I guess it is a little sad that I don't have $103 for my text book right now). Then, class! We learned about binary. It is so interesting, bits and bytes. I'm looking forward to these classes. Afterwards, I decided to get lunch with a friend, since even though I worked at three, and my last class got out at one, I could take the two o clock bus, and make it to work by three. Anyway, walking around campus, I was alerted to this:

Naked Indian Snowman!

It was a happy day. Then I hopped onto the bus, and was on my way. I got a transfer slip (why I can't go from Provo to Orem on the same bus is a mystery to me, but that is the way of UTA), and got off at the transfer station (AKA, University Mall). Then, I waited. And waited. The bus I wanted was supposed to come at 2:43, so it could make it to Macey's by three. But, it didn't come. So, I called Macey's to let them know I'd be late. Then I waited some more. It didn't come until 3:12. I guess it was scheduled to come at 3:12, but I still wonder: "What happened to the 2:43 bus?" I guess I'll never know. Luckily, I had thought ahead, and was already in my work clothes when I ran into work. I ended up being only 40 minutes late, so they weren't too mad at me. On my break, I ate with my friend from the Bakery, Melissa:

Yay Melissa! She's really cool, actually. The Deli has always gotten along with the Bakery, I think. We are really close together, physically, also. So, we see each other a lot. But wait, there's more! That night, I was able to clean the back. It basically means I get to clean fryers and do dishes. So, I was trying to dishes, and I did this:

Whoops! There goes the gravy!

I was able to get it all cleaned up and worked out. After that, there's not much to my day. We got out early, I think. And then I came home and got onto my computer (but I didn't upload pictures from my camera, so I didn't blog. Whoops).

only seven days till pay day!

1. It's January; there's snow! and it's cold!

2. I'm not certain, something I don't quite have is what I crave most right now. 3. Cork and wine go together like school and homework. 4. Chocolate is so nourishing. 5. Let us dare to dream. 6. I want to party in my home. 7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to working, tomorrow my plans include being kidnapped and going to stake conference and Sunday, I want to go to to stake conference and the CES fireside with someone cool.

more apple

So, today was the Apple keynote at Macworld. I guess this is the last Macworld conference Apple will attend, ever. Kind of sad, in my opinion, but I guess Apple's moving on to bigger and better things, so it doesn't need to go. Still, it's kind of fun, and what is Macworld without Apple? I guess we'll see what happens next year. Anyway, one of the announcements they made during the keynote, was drm music through the iTunes store. Which makes me happy. I have complained about drm before, and this is almost like a dream come true. I say almost because, of course, there is a catch. I have to pay for it. Yes, I suppose only $28.50 is better than buying all the songs and albums again. Yet, I bought them in the first place. I own them. Why should I have to pay? I probably will end up doing it one day. When I have money to burn. Also, what's up with the "special offer" sticker? They've been doing this for as long as there was an iTunes Plus section of the store. *grumble grumble* I guess I have a love-hate relationship with Apple: I love them, and they seem to love me, except they really hate me. Still, at least it's better than Microsoft.

school

So, I'm only taking three classes this semester. But, if all goes well, I will be working about 40 hours a week. First impression from classes: mission prep: I will not get any dates from this class. And I sat next to someone who's married (who is female). Interest level: 10. This will be amazing. cs 142: The girl:guy ratio is about what I was expecting. Also: apparently if you're married you do better? Interest level: 10. I just hope I don't die. cs 100: Hmmm. Part of me wonders why I'm taking this. Interest level: 6-7. I hope I lose my ego sometime here. I don't really like the idea of getting up at 4 am every morning, but I might not be doing it until next week. We'll see what happens. Maybe someone will not want to wake up at 4 am every morning, and I can take their spot. Hopefully. I need another job!

Crepes!

So, the other day I was feeling awesome (since it was the break) and decided to make crepes for breakfast. My family loved me! And, I remembered to take pictures!

The cooked crepe. I didn't really think about taking pictures of the batter, and they cook to fast to take a picture of them in the pan.

Now it has been said before that I eat my crepes in an unusual fashion. Let me demonstrate. First, I sprinkle white sugar on the crepe.

Next, I pour orange juice on top of the sugar. I like quite a bit on there, but I prefer my food wet.

Next, I roll it up like so.

Finally, cut up and eat! What's so weird about that? (except, apparently, the orange juice part). I grew up eating them this way, for breakfast. My mother is from Northern Ireland, maybe that explains it? What do you like on your crepes?

more new year stuff. because it's fun

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before? Worked two jobs while going to school full time. 2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't know if I made resolutions last year, but I have made some this year. I think my overall goal is "let this year be better, please" 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No, but every one's pregnant right now. 4. Did anyone close to you die? Yes. Two people. My grandfather and my nephew. 5. What countries did you visit? The United States of America. 6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? A boyfriend. Possible? yes. Probable? no. 7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Black friday - the day my nephew died. December 29 - not saying why. 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I made new friends. 9. What was your biggest failure? The accounting major. 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Apparently I was sick this year. 11. What was the best thing you bought? My digital camera 12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Not known. 13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? No one's. 14. Where did most of your money go? School. And plane tickets. 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? A possibility that ended up not happening. 16. What song will always remind you of 2008? "What Sarah Said" by Death Cab for Cutie 17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? Don't remember b) thinner or fatter? About the same c) richer or poorer? A little poorer, actually. But not by much. 18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Socializing. 19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Spend time online. 20. How did you spend Christmas? With family. 21. Did you fall in love in 2008? Maybe. 22. What was your favorite TV program? Um.... 23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? Nope. 24. What was the best book you read? Too many books. I really liked the Twilight series though. 25. What was your greatest musical discovery? Um, Coldplay? 26. What did you want and get? My camera, a trip to Houston. 27. What did you want and not get? All the outrageously expensive things, mostly. A new iPod. A new laptop. Books. 28. What was your favorite film of this year? Nothing springs to mind. 29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I went to church. I was 21. 30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Something I can't admit. 31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? I'm starting to get my own style. 32. What kept you sane? Nothing. I'm obviously insane by now. 33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? No one. Like always. 34. What political issue stirred you the most? None. 35. Who did you miss? Liz. 36. Who was the best new person you met? Sam. and bob. and Unit of Energy. and Katydid. and Fred. 37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008. I don't know if this is acurate, but I learned that love sucks. 38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. "If you'd only, if you'd only say yes" - Coldplay

friday already?

1. The world is learning to love me. Or maybe it's the other way around 2. "She might be" was the last thing I said. 3. I wonder why? 4. I am praying for happiness at the end of all things. 5. There's something to be said for random things. 6. Nowhere I can be is where I want to be. 7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to sleeping after work, tomorrow my plans include meeting up with my friend who I haven't seen since April, and Sunday, I want to sleep in!

caterpillars

So, tonight one of my best friends from freshmen year came back to Provo after the break. Since I didn't work, I decided we should hang out. Yay! Except we pulled out the keyboard, and that was the end of it. Yay for internet! Well, now we're watching "strictly ballroom". I guess I better get off the laptop!

2009 already?

So, last night was quite lame. And today wasn't much better. So much for bringing in the new year with a bang. But, I was thinking: I really need to get out more. I have friends and even my mother who say this. I might actually try it. I think of myself just a tad shy, but I think i might be able to do a few simple things this semester: 1- Make a new friend. I only have 3 classes, but I should be able to meet someone there. 2- Smile more. It might sound a tad corny, but I think I really need to work on it. To go along with it: 3- Look on the bright side. I am a pessimest sometimes. I really need to look for the sun. 4- I don't know if I'll be able to do this, but it's a possibility (I'm not going to say try. I've learned my lesson...). Go on a date this semester. Last semester was a bit pitiful. Really. Not one date. So, I am wearing my new yellow shirt in hopes for a bright new year. Let's see what happens.